ugh screw this

its sux sooo much. i always feel soo tired of my life i wanna just lock myself in the room in be by myself i always feel sooo depressed i have no job an graduation is tomorrow, the whole reason why i went to skool was to get a job and pretty much the only way to get a job during this great depression is to do voluteer work and then possible hire! seriously christmas is like in 40 days and my husband has a big ass family, and when they great presents they dont like they aint shy about letting us know that they dont like it, i feel as if i dont have time to do all this shit im tired of lving here i want out! im tired of not having a car to drive to the store or to even look for a job an im fucken tired of my husband not even wanting to help me drive enless i have a permit its like come on i dont need one im 19 yrs old and im pissed off at my parents for not even trying to help me when i was underage they bout me a car but didnt have time to teach me they didnt even give me a 15 yr old i feel like my childhood was so incomplete and i wanna give my daughter the best possible one, i think its kinda fucked up how my parents treated me i didnt get a choice when it came to the things i wanted in life an then they expected me to be the best i can be its hard when u have no motivation, it makes me so sad to see my little brother gett whatever the fuck he wants and he treats my parents like shit.

halloween/1yr annivesry

so im reallly bummed out last night all hollows eve was awful my "friend" left me at a party while she made out wit sum dude that isnt her bf. not even at the party she went to like a park down the str. and the party was pretty boring. she begged me to go an i was there pretty much by myself! i knew people but i dont know them that good. anyways soo she left her car at the house an i wanted to leave so i started walkin i walked half way to my crib in eastlake and the party was in chula, it was 2 in the mornin i was wearin short shorts an freezin! i kept called my hub but he was mad at me so he didnt answer. finally he picked up and was on his way, after that my phone died, i was standing there all alone,

halloween/1yr annivesry

so im reallly bummed out last night all hollows eve was awful my "friend" left me at a party while she made out wit sum dude that isnt her bf. not even at the party she went to like a park down the str. and the party was pretty boring. she begged me to go an i was there pretty much by myself! i knew people but i dont know them that good. anyways soo she left her car at the house an i wanted to leave so i started walkin i walked half way to my crib in eastlake and the party was in chula, it was 2 in the mornin i was wearin short shorts an freezin! i kept called my hub but he was mad at me so he didnt answer. finally he picked up and was on his way, after that my phone died, i was standing there all alone,

sux

sad bummed and sick wtf i hate being sick! im sick and so is my daughter lame! im tired but i cant sleep even more lame! bummer

sux

sad bummed and sick wtf i hate being sick! im sick and so is my daughter lame! im tired but i cant sleep even more lame! bummer

piSS3D 0Ff!

wtf! ! i hate stupid sluts seriously! soooo last night i was pissed off about the bitches being at my in-laws house. to make it worse one of the bitches was wearing my sweater! my dumbass brothernlaw let the slut wear my sweater if i woulda seen that bitch wearing my sweater i woulda beat that hoe! that shit really had me mad. seriously that sweater was $88 dollars an ur gonna let a bitch wear it wit out my permission some hoe he just met. un uh no!

s000 an00yying

omg! so like my brothernlaw and his friend brought over some hoes and they annoyed the fuk out of me seriously! i was in the bathroom tinkling and the bitch knocks on the door i say im using the bath room a couple of seconds later the bitch punds on the door again. can u fukin wait. i wash my hands an get out of the b* room an the bitch wasnt there. she a rude ass slut. and my hubby wakes up a couple of hrs later and he has to use the b*room so we were waiting outside the b room an another bitch was in there she was taking her sweat ass time so i knocked an my hubby got a lil mad i told him what she need to hurry the fuk up! ugh that shit pissed me off they were loud and smokin in the house that shit made me mad! i wish my gurls were here there woulda been a gurl fight! =D i woulda hit that bitch wit a bottle! hah

tijuana

i went to t.j. again for the 2nd time i must say it was pretty down! my first time was way better! more drinks this time though but last time more friends went! it was pretty cool! hehehe i danced all night on a speaker and this time me and my hoegurl were dancing together hehehe lets just say way more people started dancing what can i say were the life of the part. fuck the rest i roll with the B3ST! oh yeah! last time my friend got pretty drunk she starting making out with her friend who has a crush on her lets just say she kissed a girl an she liked it. ! t.j. this weekend we were like scared crossing it was only us gurls 2 girls crossing i was wearing a skirt short enough to bust a brittany bitch and my gurlies we they were wearing short shorts! i wanna go again to t.j. but this time go with cash flow and all my gfs! my husband doesnt want me to go down there no more hes says its dangerous and hes right it is but being down there is amazing its soo relaxing and awsome i love dancing on tables and speakers lol any ways laters!xoxoxo secret life of a married mommy! hehehe

str3ssr

stress stress stress! what the hell is wrong with me im sooo stressed school is going to be over on tuesday i do my externship wensday i just dont feel like doing it im actually scared of the what ifs like what if i mess up. its hard its complicated and sometimes i just get unsure of myself. im glad im going to do something with my life. i talked to an old friend the other day he used to be a tweeker, i havent herd from him in 3 yrs. he graduated high school and hes in college i must say im proud of my homeboy for getting his shit str8t i didnt think he could do it but he is! any ways by3

cant sleep

i cant sleep. ive been un able to sleep for a while maybe for like 3 years. its odd i know. i think i have insomia but anways. in with the new out with the old. i ve changed a lot since the last time i blogged i was 17 its 2 yrs later an soo much has changed. i got married i had a bbaby i graduated high school and i about to graduate college. after i do this im going to go bak to skool an go become a nurse. anyways enough of that. soo much shit has changed im with the same guy some times i wonder how long will be together i have so many doubts in our relationship i hate not being able to go out im soo young i just didnt understand how young i was when i got married .