ugh screw this

its sux sooo much. i always feel soo tired of my life i wanna just lock myself in the room in be by myself i always feel sooo depressed i have no job an graduation is tomorrow, the whole reason why i went to skool was to get a job and pretty much the only way to get a job during this great depression is to do voluteer work and then possible hire! seriously christmas is like in 40 days and my husband has a big ass family, and when they great presents they dont like they aint shy about letting us know that they dont like it, i feel as if i dont have time to do all this shit im tired of lving here i want out! im tired of not having a car to drive to the store or to even look for a job an im fucken tired of my husband not even wanting to help me drive enless i have a permit its like come on i dont need one im 19 yrs old and im pissed off at my parents for not even trying to help me when i was underage they bout me a car but didnt have time to teach me they didnt even give me a 15 yr old i feel like my childhood was so incomplete and i wanna give my daughter the best possible one, i think its kinda fucked up how my parents treated me i didnt get a choice when it came to the things i wanted in life an then they expected me to be the best i can be its hard when u have no motivation, it makes me so sad to see my little brother gett whatever the fuck he wants and he treats my parents like shit.