how do i get my husband back to loving me

my husband used to love me now i just feel the distance i feel hatred i feel pain i feel my heart in two. i dont feel the love that was once there. im starting to second think this whole marriage. im starting to think i mean nothing to him im starting to think i am nothing. i really feel like its either get out or fix it up. and these dreams ive been having lately have just been reassuring how i feel. i dont feel like im loved i dont. and if he doesnt love me why stay with him? i shouldnt have to be with someone who doesnt love me why? im starting to feel like he married me because im the mother of his child which isnt right i know i love him and i want to be with him! but ever since he started losing wieght and since he's been going to school he doesnt want to be with me or hes just not affectionate at all. he hates how short my hair is and doesnt like it at all. it hurts my feelings so badly. idk what to do anymore im breaking down in the worsest ways i cant breath and i cant take this pain any longer. its either gonna get fixed or break this forever cuz i dont want to hurt myself over him he isnt worth it.

okay so...

i hate nosey people if its not your bussiness dont ask. plain and simple, when you like to but into

i hate!

living here! it makes me sad i want to cry! living with my in laws makes me sad. like its a 5 bedroom house with 3 bathrooms two living rooms but when theres

2010

well well lets see whats gonna be in my future im going back to school hopefully in march! thats gonna be like maybe a year and half or close to it. school for me is going to be such a challenge! i have my daughter and my husband eh he doesnt always help. i still dont have a job which makes me so sad because i really want one making money is always nice ; ) aint that the truth! right now im feeling pretty tired but i doubt ill be able to sleep however i do need to start waking up ealier skool starts at 8 an i gotta take the bus which means ill be waking up at 6, the skool ill be going to is in the ghetto ! it seriously is! lol anyways hopefully 2010 brings me good luck money! and lots of love from the hubby!

ugh screw this

its sux sooo much. i always feel soo tired of my life i wanna just lock myself in the room in be by myself i always feel sooo depressed i have no job an graduation is tomorrow, the whole reason why i went to skool was to get a job and pretty much the only way to get a job during this great depression is to do voluteer work and then possible hire! seriously christmas is like in 40 days and my husband has a big ass family, and when they great presents they dont like they aint shy about letting us know that they dont like it, i feel as if i dont have time to do all this shit im tired of lving here i want out! im tired of not having a car to drive to the store or to even look for a job an im fucken tired of my husband not even wanting to help me drive enless i have a permit its like come on i dont need one im 19 yrs old and im pissed off at my parents for not even trying to help me when i was underage they bout me a car but didnt have time to teach me they didnt even give me a 15 yr old i feel like my childhood was so incomplete and i wanna give my daughter the best possible one, i think its kinda fucked up how my parents treated me i didnt get a choice when it came to the things i wanted in life an then they expected me to be the best i can be its hard when u have no motivation, it makes me so sad to see my little brother gett whatever the fuck he wants and he treats my parents like shit.

halloween/1yr annivesry

so im reallly bummed out last night all hollows eve was awful my "friend" left me at a party while she made out wit sum dude that isnt her bf. not even at the party she went to like a park down the str. and the party was pretty boring. she begged me to go an i was there pretty much by myself! i knew people but i dont know them that good. anyways soo she left her car at the house an i wanted to leave so i started walkin i walked half way to my crib in eastlake and the party was in chula, it was 2 in the mornin i was wearin short shorts an freezin! i kept called my hub but he was mad at me so he didnt answer. finally he picked up and was on his way, after that my phone died, i was standing there all alone,

halloween/1yr annivesry

so im reallly bummed out last night all hollows eve was awful my "friend" left me at a party while she made out wit sum dude that isnt her bf. not even at the party she went to like a park down the str. and the party was pretty boring. she begged me to go an i was there pretty much by myself! i knew people but i dont know them that good. anyways soo she left her car at the house an i wanted to leave so i started walkin i walked half way to my crib in eastlake and the party was in chula, it was 2 in the mornin i was wearin short shorts an freezin! i kept called my hub but he was mad at me so he didnt answer. finally he picked up and was on his way, after that my phone died, i was standing there all alone,